I am, finally, the mother of a beautiful baby boy. He is wonderful. He didn't used to keep me up all night until this week, and this is week #3. The first two weeks were laden with intermittent pain and euphoria of having a perfect baby, one who only woke up once a night. Of course, that has changed now as he begins to transition out of the newborn stage.
The boy eats like a horse (like his dad) and can't be wakened if he is asleep (also like his dad). He is stubborn (will cry for hours if you don't hold him) and expressive (he gets that from me). :)
I love him so much. I don't know what I will do when someone hurts him. It will be very hard for me not to kill them. You thought I was crazy before? You should see me now that I'm a mom.
We lost our sweet puppy dog, Angel, earlier this week, and for the first time in over a month, I felt really depressed. I will always miss her, since she was my first dog and I got her during a time when I was mourning my friend's death and other things going on in my life at the time. She helped me to deal with things emotionally, and because of that, I think of her as a true friend that God blessed me with at the right time. And she left at a good time too, when I have an infant who is becoming more vocal. To be honest, I don't have much time to dwell on the sadness, though I still have my moments.
What's the most encouraging thing of all of this? I can feel myself growing. I can see my relationship with my husband getting stronger, though I thought the opposite was supposed to happen.
My husband is my best friend, and he has been very supportive and sweet throughout everything. He tells me how awesome I am at being a mom. He is becoming the loving father that I always dreamed of...and a better husband because of it.
People have stepped up and helped us in so many ways, I can't thank them enough. We have been given countless gift cards, checks, gifts, clothes for Sampson. My church has been awesome. My pastor and his wife brought over food and a gift card for groceries from them and other members. Friends have offered to babysit and give a hand, gladly. I have never felt so loved.
Though life will continue to be hard, because that is just life, I am more confident that life will be okay. It doesn't weigh on my shoulders anymore.
The boy eats like a horse (like his dad) and can't be wakened if he is asleep (also like his dad). He is stubborn (will cry for hours if you don't hold him) and expressive (he gets that from me). :)
I love him so much. I don't know what I will do when someone hurts him. It will be very hard for me not to kill them. You thought I was crazy before? You should see me now that I'm a mom.
What's the most encouraging thing of all of this? I can feel myself growing. I can see my relationship with my husband getting stronger, though I thought the opposite was supposed to happen.
My husband is my best friend, and he has been very supportive and sweet throughout everything. He tells me how awesome I am at being a mom. He is becoming the loving father that I always dreamed of...and a better husband because of it.
People have stepped up and helped us in so many ways, I can't thank them enough. We have been given countless gift cards, checks, gifts, clothes for Sampson. My church has been awesome. My pastor and his wife brought over food and a gift card for groceries from them and other members. Friends have offered to babysit and give a hand, gladly. I have never felt so loved.
Though life will continue to be hard, because that is just life, I am more confident that life will be okay. It doesn't weigh on my shoulders anymore.
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