As I was sitting and watching the news last night, a story came on about a 19-year-old girl from Bethany, OK. She was murdered by her pimps who had forced her into a prostitution. She was beheaded, cut into two pieces, and had her limbs dismembered. Her torturous killing was taped and the pimps forced the other sex slaves to watch it, so they would know to never step out of line.
Anger overcame me, that and a wave of sickness. I had to go to the bathroom...I locked myself in there just so I could breathe. Hatred became me. Such a strong, fierce hatred. I could see myself crushing these mens' balls, then cutting them off and feeding their own crushed testicles to them. After that I would cut off all their fingers and toes, and then I would cut out their wretched hearts with a dull, rusty blade, that is if they had any. I'm still angry. My own situation was bad enough. When I saw the man who raped me a year or two ago at BWW's, it was everything I could do not to pull out my pocket knife and lash into him. I had to call my parents...I remember, I was screaming. You can't even verbalize the anger...there's no way to say how it feels to hate someone so much that you would take life in prison just to see them die, and not just die, but a die terrible death. A quick death would be too good for them.
I remembered the feeling yesterday. It was strong as the times when my assailant would come and hug me at school, because he thought the drugs he put in my drink had wiped my memory of that night. Yeah, right asshole. I woke up right in the middle of it. He told me that I had gotten drunk and he was taking care of me. Only I hadn't drank any alcohol. Idiot. And even if I had, I wouldn't have blacked out 30 minutes later from drinking, thanks.
That poor girl. All those poor girls. No one deserves that...except rapists and murders. I know Jesus loves them, but I don't. God forgive me, but that's something that I will try to learn, and it will take all my life to forgive men like these. I can't imagine how her family feels. How would you feel if you knew your daughter died, not only before her time, but in gruesome torture? My blood boils at the thought.
Anger overcame me, that and a wave of sickness. I had to go to the bathroom...I locked myself in there just so I could breathe. Hatred became me. Such a strong, fierce hatred. I could see myself crushing these mens' balls, then cutting them off and feeding their own crushed testicles to them. After that I would cut off all their fingers and toes, and then I would cut out their wretched hearts with a dull, rusty blade, that is if they had any. I'm still angry. My own situation was bad enough. When I saw the man who raped me a year or two ago at BWW's, it was everything I could do not to pull out my pocket knife and lash into him. I had to call my parents...I remember, I was screaming. You can't even verbalize the anger...there's no way to say how it feels to hate someone so much that you would take life in prison just to see them die, and not just die, but a die terrible death. A quick death would be too good for them.
I remembered the feeling yesterday. It was strong as the times when my assailant would come and hug me at school, because he thought the drugs he put in my drink had wiped my memory of that night. Yeah, right asshole. I woke up right in the middle of it. He told me that I had gotten drunk and he was taking care of me. Only I hadn't drank any alcohol. Idiot. And even if I had, I wouldn't have blacked out 30 minutes later from drinking, thanks.
That poor girl. All those poor girls. No one deserves that...except rapists and murders. I know Jesus loves them, but I don't. God forgive me, but that's something that I will try to learn, and it will take all my life to forgive men like these. I can't imagine how her family feels. How would you feel if you knew your daughter died, not only before her time, but in gruesome torture? My blood boils at the thought.
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