I'm tired tonight. Breck has tickets to see The Flaming Lips, but I'm too tired and the thought of the freezing cold wind that will be blowing at the outside arena isn't helping either. I don't want to go anywhere. In the face of inevitable uncertainty, I just want to hide under a rock.
So my employment situation isn't as secure as I thought. I have a month to get my sales up. Despite the fact we don't advertise at all, I have been trying to drum up business. It's hard to do when you are on your own. I can tell people think I have a cushy job in a nice chair, just sitting here. But it's not that easy trying to force people to buy into your product. Voice mails, telephone calls, failed projects, passing out fliers at colleges...this is getting exhausting. Add to that calling public schools and business associations--I'm just tired of getting turned down, or being forwarded to someone who doesn't answer. Maybe it wasn't the greatest business idea for Oklahoma, or maybe it's just not in the right part of town. I resent the fact that it's all on my shoulders. If I knew that pushing for sales was going to be this hard, then I wouldn't have applied. I wanted a job that didn't require sales/marketing. I love formatting and designing books--don't get me wrong. I love that part. But it's very discouraging to see how this is all turning out, when I'm not sure where to go next or how to make it work.
We're supposed to go to some Halloween party later tonight too. I don't really want to see anyone. I just want to disappear for a while in the solitude of a warm blanket on a couch and watch The Office. Is that awful of me?
So my employment situation isn't as secure as I thought. I have a month to get my sales up. Despite the fact we don't advertise at all, I have been trying to drum up business. It's hard to do when you are on your own. I can tell people think I have a cushy job in a nice chair, just sitting here. But it's not that easy trying to force people to buy into your product. Voice mails, telephone calls, failed projects, passing out fliers at colleges...this is getting exhausting. Add to that calling public schools and business associations--I'm just tired of getting turned down, or being forwarded to someone who doesn't answer. Maybe it wasn't the greatest business idea for Oklahoma, or maybe it's just not in the right part of town. I resent the fact that it's all on my shoulders. If I knew that pushing for sales was going to be this hard, then I wouldn't have applied. I wanted a job that didn't require sales/marketing. I love formatting and designing books--don't get me wrong. I love that part. But it's very discouraging to see how this is all turning out, when I'm not sure where to go next or how to make it work.
We're supposed to go to some Halloween party later tonight too. I don't really want to see anyone. I just want to disappear for a while in the solitude of a warm blanket on a couch and watch The Office. Is that awful of me?
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